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Name: Carrie
Country: United States
State: New Jersey
Metro: Edison
Birthday: 12/25/1990
Gender: Female

Interests: aim,chatting with friends,hanging out with my bff's and my bf, lollol.er...not much else. origami...books(yes, some strange looks would be appreciated),and.....................CLAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Expertise: I'm dumb. My expertise is lounging around doing nothing.=D
Occupation: Student
Industry: Education/Research

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Member Since: 9/27/2003

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Monday, June 19, 2006

wow. it has really been a while, hasn't it? The only reason i'm bloging is cause I'm out of my mind with boredom. And yes, for the ones observant enough, it does show at 4 in the morning. That's only cause I'm on China time. Anyhow...how has the past year been? It was....confusing. That just about sums it up.the little fling/obsession with R has been ended...but not on a bad note. I think I can handle being friends now without wanting anything more. It's good to know we have each others backs. And as for the other person....well...I've tried so hard not to give in but it's not working out. The plan, I mean. I'm just afraid that if I say anything, things will get awkward, y'know? And yes, I am aware I should tell him, and non, I am not going to.Why? Because that'll only complicate things even more. I realize that everyday, every minute, some one is dying. Someone is being born. Someone is succeeding. Someone is failing. Someone is crying. Someone is ecstatic. Someone is falling in love. Somone is experiencing heartbreak. And I realize, nothing we can do can stop this. Nothing....can make it have the outcome we want. I am aware that only 2 people will probably read this. And..maybe that's a good thing. I don't know. Why do I always go fo the broken guys? Maybe I like helping people, maybe I like to care. Now I just sound egotistical.But...my willingness to care has inadvertently caused my biggest downfall. Vulnerability. Because when you lt someone see what you really think, you're exposing yourself to the pain and hurt. Because not everything is perfect. You WILL fall. and it WILL hurt. The question is, will you get back up?

Or will you let them trample all over you?

I guess I'm just being reflective...but...=/. Time will become the ultimate healer. It'll change everything. But memories....they're forever.Because you relive happy moments, and forget sad ones. But what if we want to remember the sad ones? because they make us stronger, and they make up who we are.

ilu&hearts;

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Friday, October 07, 2005

Totally want to go here again. <33 Hawaii

Felt like being totally random today and just posting random pictures...tht's Japan, where I also wanna go...

There we go. Isn't that place gorgeous? It's Wales. I wanna go there for more personal reasons than anything.

And one last place....

Back to ShiJiaZhuang, my roots.

Cool people:(if you're on here, youre cool. If you're not, too bad)

^That right there, is my future husband. Sorry inside joke between me and him. DON'T ask.^

And I would post more, but Xanga is being gay. So farewell until next time, my loves.

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Monday, October 03, 2005

Got my modeling pictures back. Look good, I'll post some..things with Chewy have been going great, and he's so sweet. He is the most incredible guy ever. Especially when he turns and smiles at you.

my studio shots...magic box..you like?

my windswept model look..according to Yumna...

my favorite one out of them all..i like the whole pastel thing, ya know?

Ergh..hold on...

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Tuesday, September 13, 2005

One week since I updated..just finished watching house. Very very very good episode. I want season one on DVD, but maybe for christmas....yea I'm gonna go now

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Friday, August 19, 2005

Currently Listening
When Doves Cry
By Prince
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omg i just lost the entire damn blog! rawrghhh!!!!!!!! anyhow omg today my friend called and he was like" who is this? carols mom? carols grandma?" i was like.."no...guess." and he's like "carol! are we still going...out to lunch..today?" he sounded really shy and it was really sweet. I'm takinga wild guess and saying that that was his first time askinga girl out. We've been friends since we were really young, which makes sense, cause he's my future husband. xD. Our parents were talking over lunch the other day and I was having fun with my mom's new digital camera, and i took a picture of his mom. She was completely unaware, and my mom's like " Don't take bad pictures of our future mother-in-law!" and she was like" oh dear god, here you go again" Which means that they talked about it before. Me and him were like..."=.=''But I wouldn't mind. After lunch we spent all afternoon flirting, and it was so sweet. He kept smiling at me, and he was carrying everything I bought. And he paid for mostly everything. Then we went to go take pictures, like the kind that you put your head in only and you get to choose the background,(asians will understand) and we took like 5 together and honestly, it was so sweet. I have one of the best pictures we took together. I was shoving him and he was making bunny ears. It sounds weird, but it was really sweet. And then I went to his house and he took his shirt off.. He's so FREAKISHLY SKINNY! as I was leaving, we made plans for today, but I couldn't go, cause I'm at my nana's house. He was really subdued and stuff, but he was so sweet to me. And wehen I left, he was really quiet. The next time I see him will be in two years and he'll be going off to college. I'll miss him so much. I'll give him a studio picture which came out really good.=) Kay

- Floating on air, carol.

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